Feeling much better today, I told my boyfriend to go and stay at his parents house last night, and I went round to my Mums with my sister and a friend. We drank wine and ate Pizza, salad and chocolate (birthday) cake. I love spending time with my Mum and sis, so it was great and when I woke up this morning, I felt 100 times better.
Last night, my boyfriend was asking if he could take me somewhere tonight, i.e go for a meal, a few drinks and stay in a hotel somewhere nice. I didn't give him an answer, still not sure if I want to spend time with him right now but we'll see. I don't want to make rash decisions because of a reaction to one event, however, I do need time to think about what is best for me. Being single is so much more scary for me at this weight, I know that's silly but it's how I feel. I'm a serial monogamist, I have never been out of a relationship since I was about 19, I jump from one to another and often they overlap. My Mum is the same way, I suppose it never really gives us time to reflect on what we really want. However, I know me, if I come out of this relationship, I will be in another one before I know it, plus I really do love him (the incosiderate bastard!! Excuse my language).
Breakfast for me today was doritos, cherry pie and ice-cream and Ferrero Rocher chocolates (x 5). Obviously, although I am feeling better, I am still eating for emotional reasons. To be honest, I wanted something savory, but there is nothing in the house that I fancied (I haven't been shopping for a week and a half). I really need to stock up - now that's definately on my to do list this weekend xx
Last night, my boyfriend was asking if he could take me somewhere tonight, i.e go for a meal, a few drinks and stay in a hotel somewhere nice. I didn't give him an answer, still not sure if I want to spend time with him right now but we'll see. I don't want to make rash decisions because of a reaction to one event, however, I do need time to think about what is best for me. Being single is so much more scary for me at this weight, I know that's silly but it's how I feel. I'm a serial monogamist, I have never been out of a relationship since I was about 19, I jump from one to another and often they overlap. My Mum is the same way, I suppose it never really gives us time to reflect on what we really want. However, I know me, if I come out of this relationship, I will be in another one before I know it, plus I really do love him (the incosiderate bastard!! Excuse my language).
Breakfast for me today was doritos, cherry pie and ice-cream and Ferrero Rocher chocolates (x 5). Obviously, although I am feeling better, I am still eating for emotional reasons. To be honest, I wanted something savory, but there is nothing in the house that I fancied (I haven't been shopping for a week and a half). I really need to stock up - now that's definately on my to do list this weekend xx
2 comments:
I'm thinking of you, whatever you decide.
hang in there....I know where your coming from with the whole relationship overlaping and jumping from one to the other.
Hope your okay
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